I was able to experience anger and tremendous sadness. Now, that my brain is whole and no longer split into 38 alternate personalities, I'm finally able to get my life on a healthier track and move forward.
I allowed myself to experience the anger and gave myself permission to cry. I wasn't allowed to cry when I was a child. My mother didn't want to hear crying or laughing. I wasn't allowed to express any emotion her or my father didn't give permission to express in the first place. When we were given permission, after a while. my father didn't like hearing what my brother and I had to say, so we were beaten with a belt.
I spent most of my life either being quiet or being around people who would beat me because I expressed myself.
I love my life right now and while I'm exhausted and moving like a slug after yesterday's emotional breakthrough, I'm looking forward to more breakthroughs and living at a higher level than I have ever lived.