People who have a mental illness or disorder needs to take changes in very small bites and when that's not possible, because of life, their brains go on overload. When this happens, they need a lot of downtime - possibly alone time.
This past week was a very stressful week for me. I am unable to stop the commitments I made, because they will adversely affect my future. There are times when I have to go forward regardless of what life throws at me.
I am feeling bombarded by changes and after a three hour low key commitment, this past week, my brain decided the low key was too much. I was fighting my brain dissociating for three hours. It was a different experience and I did succeed in staying present.
I had to look at what I could have done differently then do that in the future.
My brain is changing and I am reacting so much more differently than I did before unifying my brain. This part of my journey is quite challenging. I am determined to meet the challenge. There are times though when the challenges can be too much and then it is time for downtime to recuperate and rejuvenate.
I listened to a book about how people tend to not rest and sleep as much as they should. They are basically filling up their time with working because they don't feel that they're being productive unless they do. That really struck a cord with me as that is how I thought - I'm not productive unless I am sitting at the computer for hours doing something. I am quite productive and with laser focus, I can produce a lot in a short amount of time.
When I started my business, I wanted to work the hours I wanted to work. I was raised to be a people pleaser by both of my parents because if I displeased them, then they retaliated mentally and physically. I was berated a lot by both of them. They enjoyed ganging up on me or playing good guy/bad guy.
I am working through the areas of my life to not be a people pleaser. One area is not allow having to look like I'm being productive to everyone else. One of the changes I am making this week. Also, when people think I can handle something and I tell them I can't - too much overwhelm, anxiety and stress. They don't believe me then I have to go into combat mode. In the end, I do get my point across because I refused to budge and had to raise my voice to be heard. I don't like having to raise my voice to be heard. People need to listen more and really hear without allowing their expectations to get in the way.
Yesterday, I wasn't surprised to have a sore throat which was stress induced even though for the past week, I have unplugged from social media a lot to get my allotted downtime. I'm glad I did unplug or I could have been sicker than I am now.
While I have unplugged from the electronics part of my business and life, I have felt more content and peaceful. This is what I have also wanted in my dream life - less work and more contentment and peace.
What does your dream life look like? Are you working too much to get that bigger house, newer car? Can you make your dream life happen now which may consist of contentment, peace, more time with your family by doing less, etc.?
What do you do when life bombards you with a lot of changes? Do you end up getting sick because the stress knocks down your immune system?
I look forward to hearing your comments.